From a blazing fire to slowly burning embers

How easy it is to fall into th daily stride of life and accept it in it's fallen state. There are days that I feel on fire for the Lord, but by even a few hours I've lost the spark that had just ignited. I go back to lacking a spark. One of the most evident ways I see this in my life is when I have an idea to help the world, an idea to make a difference. My mind churns for ways to make it happen but moments later I'm focusing on my own small problems such as what I will eat for lunch or if my outfit makes me look fat. Time flies by and I realize that I've made no progress in helping humanity and especially no progress in sharing the gospel. Another way that the lack of spark is evident in my life is when I begin to depend heavily on other people in my life too heavily. I tend to lose the feeling of full satisfaction in the Lords delight in my heart and I lose delight in His heart. I get frustrated when the people I love aren't talking to me and I find little things to dwell on. I can feel Satan planting ideas in my head and it scares me. I hear that I'm not old enough to be doing the things I do and I hear that I cannot be equipped to do what the Lords will is. I hear that I am unloveable and lose hope in myself. I can go from a spiritual mountain to a dark and lonely place where the only hope I have is in people. There is something so terrible about the way this happens. It comes from a lack of time spent with him. Satan doesn't need much space to invade your mind and heart to feed you lies. I pray that I could build a relationship with more of the Lords intention and less of mine.