Hello little blog. I've thought of you often, I just haven't known where to pick back up. So here I am, making my way back to it. Partly because this is one of the first times in a really long time that I've had straight me time. There is NOTHING I have to do tonight besides sleep. Wonderful.
Anyway, I've been thinking. A lot. About fear. I heard a really great sermon by Bob Goff this past Sunday and the catch phrase was "Be not afraid"... three words, infinite meaning. Sure, "Be not afraid" as you take your last final, "Be not afraid" as you walk in the dark at night... but what if we all took it a few steps deeper? And even deeper than that? Would you not find some really dusty, really cool stuff in there? These words have encouraged me to think about who exactly it is that I AM and was created to be. And I will be honest, my thoughts have both distanced me from and brought me to God. Through bitter visions of me being someone cooler, funnier, more popular if I merely conformed to the world, I have surfaced with the determination to instead love... go... do... BE. What does that look like for you? If you have no clue, then we're in the same boat. But I am realizing that the person God intended us to be is not some stressed out, worry laden human being. No, he wants JOY! Can you believe that? Joy. Imagine enthusiasm, the biggest smile you've got, people blowing bubbles everywhere and a puppy running through the middle of it. Haha! Now see where you can take THAT sort of vision and make it fit your own imagination. Perhaps one of my biggest fears has been to walk towards JOY. To experience joy would mean to let go of all that weighs me down... to let go of the responsibilities that I feel are life or death. To let go of any connection to ANYONE and just let it be... to remember that the only connection that will ultimately lead you anywhere is the one that Jesus made for us. Love with joy and remember that you are guaranteed nothing on earth, especially TIME. Make time. Be time for others. Sure, this feels a little similar to a camp high for me. I feel so, just, happy. But the take away is so much greater than that... so much more inspirational.
Think about it. Be not afraid... where can that take you?
