I hung out with God today. I don't normally understand how to do that... but today I did. I wasn't trying to, my heart needed to. We just listened to music. Christian music and non- Christian music, he drove with me. It's amazing to me how God can speak through music. Let me share a song that spoke to me today.
Why did this speak to me? The words "I wish you could see me now... " leading to "i'm not who I was" ring true in many areas of my life. The thing is, ever since I let God in, i'm NOT who I was. I don't want to awkwardly going around proclaiming it. If anything, that would be a turn off to my old crowd. But sometimes I do wish God could use me as a light to others that saw how I used to be. It's also a song of forgiveness to me and right now there is a relationship that requires forgiveness from both sides. What do you do when you ruin a friendship? What do you do when there are two to blame? It's easy to hold the grudge for both parties. I have held the grudge. So has she. But today I found myself just longing to send this song to her. I want to say to her... I'm not who you think I am, i'm not who I was.... I want her to hear that I was mad, I was hurt, but now I'm not who i was. God worked through some pain with me just in the short time I tuned into those lyrics driving down the highway with the music up loud. God wanted me to hear it. I felt like he was sitting there saying "hey, turn this up, I like this song and it really reminds me of your situation right now!"
I love the Lord. He always meets me where I am.
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